1. |
Reckless Abandonment
03:27
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I never really said that this was part of our promise
It got lost in substances, you used to clear your head
Look at me now, stumbling on my words again, the thought of it just making me upset
So blame it on bad luck, again can't take blame for your actions
What you did was fucked up, leaving me this always happens
Well I should have known, stupid to think you'd own
Up to anything this time
Well now it's said and done, this logic never won
Believing all your scripted lies
I never really know where you and I may stand
You're always up and down, you're never making sense
Look at me now, stumbling on my words again, the thought of you just making me upset
So blame it on bad luck, again can't take blame for your actions
What you did was fucked up, leaving me this always happens
Well I should have known, stupid to think you'd own
Up to anything this time
Well now it's said and done, this logic never won
Believing all your scripted lies
And you'll miss me when I'm gone, find out that you've been so wrong
About all your impressions, your fucking selfish intentions
Fictitious hopes may be the reason, the voice in my head tells me to hold on and keeps replaying the moments
You had promised not to leave and to stay strong
But you couldn't stay strong
You never fucking stayed strong
You just strung me along
So blame it on bad luck, againt take blame for your actions
What you did was fucked up, leaving me this always happens
Well I should have known, stupid to think you'd own
Up to anything this time
Well now it's said and done, this logic never won
Believing all your scripted lies
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2. |
Texts I'll Never Send
03:06
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Are you awake?
I'm sorry, I know it's late but to tell the truth I'm not so great
I miss you
I miss our conversations when the sun went down and the night came up
You talked to me, I opened up but I
But I don't want to open up anymore 'cause whenever I do, people head to the door
I'm not okay, when I see you on the street, sometimes our eyes will meet
And my heart starts to beat
I'm not okay, when I see you all the time, and you're just fine
I think of you every night
So tell me
Are you there? I'm sorry but I'm so scared
to tell the truth I'm gonna tear
I miss us
I miss our random snapchats
When my walls went down and the truth came up
You promised me I was enough
But I don't want to open up anymore
cause whenever I do, people head to the door
I'm not okay
When I see you on the street, sometimes our eyes will meet
And my heart starts to beat
I'm not okay, when I see you all the time, and you're just fine
I think of you every night
So tell me
It's 3 AM and I'm staring at this text I'll never send
So I'll erase everything and assume
You're not awake
I'm not okay,
When I see you on the street, sometimes our eyes will meet
And my heart starts to beat
I'm not okay, when I see you all the time, and you're just fine
I think of you every night
So tell me
It's 3 AM and I'm staring at this text I'll never send
So I'll erase everything and assume
You're not awake
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3. |
Right, Wright?
03:11
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Why'd you always have to be right, wright?
So stubborn you could never be wrong, that's why I had to write this song
So we could talk, settle the dust, forgive and move on
I just wanna get along
You're making me feel worthless, so fucking sick and nervous
Did I really deserve this? Don't want this to lose purpose
And now you're moving on about to start a new chapter of your life
You met a boy whose now a father to your baby and you're soon to be a wife
I spent so many nights to figure out how or why I wasn't a part of it
But it's you, with your temper so hot and your skull so thick
Can't find a way to get over it
Be right, wright?
So stubborn you could never be wrong, that's why I had to write this song
So we could talk, settle the dust, forgive and move on
I just wanna get along
You're making me feel worthless, so fucking sick and nervous
Did I really deserve this? Don't want this to lose purpose
Do you remember all the Saturday mornings that we were up so early
Good times and memories before you stopped talking to me
I spent so many nights trying to figure out how or why I wasn't a part of it
But it's you, with your temper so hot and your skull so thick
Can't find a way to
Be right, wright?
So stubborn you could never be wrong, that's why I had to write this song
So we could talk, settle the dust, forgive and move on
I just wanna get along
You're making me feel worthless, so fucking sick and nervous
Did I really deserve this? Don't want this to lose purpose
You're making me feel worthless, so fucking sick and nervous
Did I really deserve this? Don't want this to lose purpose
So what you think these words don't hurt
Not physical but unseen wounds that's worse
The psychology of this scars me burnt
Out of my mind and into lessons learned
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4. |
Sick and Tired
02:39
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You really fucked up this time
Your luck's about as good as a face-up dime
And I'm sick and tired of laying on the floor
Searching every penny that I've got
Hoping one will be heads up
Cause I'm so sick and tired
You're such a dirty liar
Put my trust in you and you've only acted vile
Take the things we had and throw them in the fire
Cause I'm not gonna wait around
For you anymore
You really got me this time
Never thought I'd be the one on your bad side
And I'm sick and tired
Of waiting for you to come around
And tell me everything that everything will work out fine
I just needed to learn
I guess that luck is what I'll just have to earn
But I'm sick and tired of
Waiting for a sign
To tell me that you are one of a kind
And everything will be alright
Cause I'm so sick and tired
You're such a dirty liar
Put my trust in you and you've only acted vile
Take the things we had and throw them in the fire
Cause I'm not gonna wait around
For you anymore
And I'm so sick and tired
Of being left out by the dirt road
And I'm so sick and tired
Of crossing my fingers, only to have my luck run out
And I'm so sick and tired, I'm so sick and tired
I'm so sick and tired, I'm so sick and tired
You're such a dirty liar
Put my trust in you and you've only acted vile
Take the things we had and throw them in the fire
Cause I'm not gonna wait around
For you anymore
Cause I'm so sick and tired
You're such a dirty liar
Put my trust in you and you've only acted vile
Take the things we had and throw them in the fire
cause I'm not gonna wait around
For you anymore
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5. |
Go Home and Watch T.V.
03:09
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Why don't you go back home and watch TV
We all know what that really means
If you've got no job and got no funds
I don't know where you're buying from
When your nose drips blood you say it's weather
Shut your fucking mouth we know you better
It doesn't snow in the bay but I guess it does when you're away
Your voice is all I hear it's ringing in my ears
Cause we're here at the same party with the same people
Trying to act cool like nothing is real but when you lie to my face
And flirt with my friends then turn around and do it again
It's a really hard hit but don't worry I'm over it
Why don't you go back home and watch TV
Maybe this is all you'll ever be
A child with mommy and daddy's bank
If only they knew where their cash was spent
When you're jacked as fuck you think we don't notice
Shut your fucking mouth it's so damn obvious
It doesn't snow in the bay but I guess it does when you're away
Your voice is all I hear it's ringing in my ears
Cause were here at the same party with the same people
Trying to act cool like nothing is real
When you lie to my face and flirt with my friends
Then turn around and do it again
It's a really hard hit but don't worry I'm over it
Go home and watch TV
Go home and watch TV
Go home and watch TV
Go home and watch TV
Go home and watch TV
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6. |
College
02:44
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Class and grades and friends and lovers
Moms and dads and aunts and uncles
There's so much too do and so little time
So I think that I'll just go and hide
Curl away with Doritos and Netflix
Avoid the problem and watch the walking dead
Maybe if I'm lucky zombies will eat me
I'll never have to worry about anything ever again
I'm exhausted to delusion
There's just too much blood in my stream of caffeine
Another cup is needed over at table 3
I would sleep if I could but I can't so I won't
I'll stew in my thoughts until the sun comes up
College and credits, acquaintances and exes,
Parents, and brothers, and sisters, cousins
There's so much to do and absolutely no time
So I think I'll just go and hide
Curl away with my bottle of Jäger avoid the problem
And lay in my bed maybe if I'm lucky
I'll figure out my life and
I'll never have to worry about anything ever again
I'm exhausted to delusion
There's just too much blood in my stream of caffeine
Another cup is needed over at table 3
I would sleep if I could but I can't so I won't
So I'll stew in my thoughts until the sun comes up
I'm thinking about everything by myself
My mind is running off I'm losing my health
If could only sleep things would clear up
But there's too much caffeine in me
So I'll drink up
I'm exhausted to delusion
There's just too much blood in my stream of caffeine
Another cup is needed over at table 3
I would sleep if I could but I can't so I won't
So I'll stew in my thoughts until the sun comes up
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7. |
6 Months Too Late
03:12
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We were just friends, right?
That's what you said
Hold on wait, come again, was it all just pretend?
Cause now your upset when you see me with someone else
And we were just friends right
That's how it was
Cause you said time was up
At least that's what I thought
Stop acting like we're more than we are
Cause if were only friends
Than you can just pretend
That it doesn't upset you to see me
With somebody else but you had your chance now
And I'm not the kind of girl to just wait around for you
I hope I'm your biggest regret every single day
When you wake up thinking of where I've been
With him, not you
We were so good, right?
That's what I thought
But I guess, I was wrong, cause you're not moving on
Cause now your upset when you see me with someone new
And we were so good right
But I guess we're not
Missed your chance now you're mad
So whose fault is that
Don't blame me for your own mistakes
Cause if were only friends
Than you can just pretend
That it doesn't upset you to see me
With somebody else but you had your chance now
And I'm not the kind of girl to just wait around for you
I hope I'm your biggest regret every single day
When you wake up thinking of where I've been
With him, not you
That train has left the station
The flight has taken off
I'm not the little girl in love with you anymore
She grew up and figured out that enough was enough
So don't come around and acting like you ever cared at all
With somebody else but you had your chance now
And I'm not the kind of girl to just wait around for you
I hope that I'm biggest regret every single day
When you wake up Thinking of where I've been
With him, not you
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8. |
White Noise
03:14
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All the noises
That I hear surround
Creating a loudness
Such a deafening sound
Gotta learn to drown it out
Before it starts to break me down
My thoughts just won't shut up
My mind is a radio filled with static
In and out it's wreaking havoc
Keep the connection playing in my head
Every single place I go it's hard to think I'm losing control
Can't find a tower to connect with cause every time I try
I end up fuzzy and unclear
Can't seem to makes sense here
I always argue with myself
And wrestle with my thoughts
Maybe I will be fine
If I just give it time
But things never go right
My thoughts won't just shut up
My mind is a radio filled with static
In and out it's wreaking havoc
Keep the connection playing in my head
Every single place I go it's hard to think I'm losing control
Can't find a tower to connect with cause every time I try
I end up fuzzy and unclear
Can't seem to makes sense here
It's all white noise
It's all white noise
It's all white noise
It's all white noise
My mind is a radio filled with static
In and out it's wreaking havoc
Keep the connection playing in my head
Every single place I go it's hard to think I'm losing control
Can't find a tower to connect with cause every time I try
I end up fuzzy and unclear
Can't seem to makes sense here
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9. |
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Maybe I'm just old school
The pen and paper type
Cause when shit starts to go wrong
I always sit and write
About how I have the worst luck
And how eternally I'm stuck
In this vicious cycle of thinking
Why am I so fucked up
Now and again I sit and wonder
Why the hell am I still here
Pointless moments lost in time
Another fucking wasted year
Gotta get my shit together
Cause nothing lasts forever
And I'm just not getting younger
Time to go find the hunger
I don't wanna waste away
But I'm on the course already
At least that's what it's like
Living in this life
I need to pick myself up
Dust off the bad stuff
That keeps me buried six feet under
All the bullshit I hear
Ringing in my ears
That I need to let go
And all the things I think about
Before I go to sleep at night
Only amplify my worries
When I open up my eyes
I just wanna amount to something
Don't wanna be seen as a nothing
But that's how I'm trained to feel
When hopes are up, vices come in to steal
I don't wanna waste away
But I'm on the course already
At least that's what it's like
Living in this life
I need to pick myself up
Dust off the bad stuff
That keeps me buried six feet under
All the bullshit I hear
Ringing in my ears
That I need to let go
And every time I try to change
I just get stuck on the same things
I need to let go
It's something I know
I'm done with feeling sorry for myself
No longer want to feel like I need help
I need to let go
It's something that I know
I don't wanna waste away
But I'm on the course already
At least that's what it's like
Living in this life
I need to pick myself up
Dust off the bad stuff
That keeps me buried six feet under
All the bullshit I hear
Ringing in my ears
That I need to let go
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10. |
Rooftops
04:31
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The skyline slams into the ridge
Smoke exhaled with every breath
Neighbors feast their eyes thinking I'll start to give a shit
But the sun setting is so distracting It reminds me of your lips
If I sit and hide for one more night maybe I'll forget but I'm
I'm so tired of sitting on my roof
Reef in my hand taking in all the judging looks
But I guess I'm fine it's just a lot is on my mind
I keep replaying all the times you said to me that were mine
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Night is falling faster now and I'm completely lit
I keep rattling my mind with all the lies that you filled me up with
Your face festers in my head like an infected itch
My hazy eyes try to type a goodbye text message cause I'm
I'm so tired of sitting on my roof
Reef in my hand taking in all the judging looks
But I guess I'm fine it's just a lot is on my mind
I keep replaying all the times you said to me that were mine
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
I'm done waiting by the phone
I'm done wondering when you'll be coming home
Stop with the lies
So that my sad and troubled eyes can finally close
And I will get some sleep tonight
Stop with the lies
(Group)
I'm so tired of sitting on my roof
Reef in my hand taking in all the judging looks
But I guess I'm fine it's just a lot is on my mind
I keep replaying all the times you said to me that were mine
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
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11. |
12th Year Anthem
03:29
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All these feelings I have
I'll push them back down inside of me
Afraid to let them out
What would come back to bite me?
Too hard to figure this out
Am I too cursed from this doubt?
Lingering within these concepts
In my head are getting all too loud
Lost in these remedies that repeat so strong
Can I get away and take me too far gone?
Cause I'm only let in to be exiled out
Was my honesty not requested, not allowed?
Never give up or give in to get out
Despite everything you could have
Dropping the load just to settle for normal
When you had the chance to surpass what was average
And break free, get free from normalcy
Please tell me the way
Because I don't know where I fit in
People keep telling me shit happens for a reason
I want to figure this out
Am I too cursed from this doubt?
Lingering within these concepts
In my head are getting all too loud
Lost in these remedies that repeat so strong
Can I get away and take me too far gone?
Only let in to be exiled out
Was my honesty not requested, not allowed?
Never give up or give in to get out
Despite everything you could have
Dropping the load just to settle for normal
When you had the chance to surpass what was average
And break free, get free from normalcy
(woo!)
Lost in these remedies that repeat so strong
Can I get away and take me too far gone?
Only let in to be exiled out
Was my honesty not requested, not allowed?
Never give up or give in to get out
Despite everything you could have
Dropping the load just to settle for normal
When you had the chance to surpass what was average
And break free, get free from normalcy
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12. |
Lucifer
04:18
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You're the devil in disguise
Had to hurt loved ones to cover your lies
Or were they our lies?
Nothing's clear anymore
Too many tales too hard to keep up the score
A blurred year away too fast
I can't believe I thought we'd ever last
You were the hurricane to my perfect storm
You hit me so hard I couldn't ignore
This love's made me blinder to the power of your thunder
Even with the warnings I kept looking past the hounding
Friendly reminders couldn't keep me from drowning
Higher and higher we get
The more I start to wonder the more I see what's under
Your fake facade, I applaud your bullshit made up story plot
You think I won't remember, but you won't let me forget
All of this keeps spinning in my head
All of this keeps spinning in my head
Just another red rose cliche
I'm done with all the games you wanted to play
Or were they my games? Nothings clear anymore
Too many turns I can't remember the score
A charade covered not so great
Wrecked me in such wicked of ways
Yet I was still trapped under your spell
But I couldn't break free from this hell
This loves made me blinder to the darkest of your color
Even with the warnings I kept falling for your tricks
Friendly reminders couldn't keep me from all this
Higher and higher we get
The more I start to wonder the more I see what's under
Your fake facade, I applaud your bullshit made up story plot
You think I won't remember, but you won't let me forget
All of this keeps spinning in my head
All of this keeps spinning in my head
If I stand here long enough my mind will start to come undone
I'm trying to keep my balance but I'm on a ledge
If I stand here long enough my mind will start to come undone
I'm trying to keep my balance but I'm on a ledge
The more I start to wonder the more I see what's under
Your fake facade, I applaud your bullshit made up story plot
You think I won't remember, but you won't let me forget
All of this keeps spinning in my head
All of this keeps spinning in my head
All of this keeps spinning in my head
All of this keeps spinning in my head
My head
Higher and higher we get
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13. |
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If your telephone rings at 2 AM
I won't guarantee it's not me again
Cause I'm wasted
And the taste of
This bottle burns too sweet on the back of my throat to stop
So please excuse me from my rambling
About life and the stupid reasons that we ever fought
Cause I'm wasted, wasted
I'll wake up tomorrow on the bathroom floor
No memory of our conversation the night before
No, I’ll have no memory of our conversation the night before
(Tony Geravesh)
If another drunk call comes my way
I won't guarantee that it will change my mind
When I leave tonight
I’ll drive straight between the dotted lines on the street
Reeling from my lack of sleep and time
Without you on my mind
I know you’ll be fine
Till then I’m getting wasted, wasted
I'll wake up tomorrow on the bathroom floor
No memory of the conversation the night before
No memory of our conversation before
Cause I'm wasted, I'm wasted
I'll wake up tomorrow on the bathroom floor
No memory of our conversation the night before
No I’ll have no memory of our conversation the night before
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14. |
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You really fucked up this time
Your luck's about as good as a face-up dime
And I'm sick and tired of laying on the floor
Searching every penny that I've got
Hoping one will be heads up
Cause I'm so sick and tired
You're such a dirty liar
Put my trust in you and you've only acted vile
Take the things we had and throw them in the fire
Cause I'm not gonna wait around
For you anymore
You really got me this time
Never thought I'd be the one on your bad side
And I'm sick and tired
Of waiting for you to come around
And tell me everything that everything will work out fine
I just needed to learn
I guess that luck is what I'll just have to earn
But I'm sick and tired of
Waiting for a sign
To tell me that you are one of a kind
And everything will be alright
Cause I'm so sick and tired
You're such a dirty liar
Put my trust in you and you've only acted vile
Take the things we had and throw them in the fire
Cause I'm not gonna wait around
For you anymore
And I'm so sick and tired
Of being left out by the dirt road
And I'm so sick and tired
Of crossing my fingers, only to have my luck run out
And I'm so sick and tired, I'm so sick and tired
I'm so sick and tired, I'm so sick and tired
You're such a dirty liar
Put my trust in you and you've only acted vile
Take the things we had and throw them in the fire
cause I'm not gonna wait around
For you anymore
Cause I'm so sick and tired
You're such a dirty liar
Put my trust in you and you've only acted vile
Take the things we had and throw them in the fire
cause I'm not gonna wait around
For you anymore
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